Not This

Today I started my application to NYC Teaching Fellows. There are a few essays, and I know I will be perfectionistic about it, and it will be grueling, and I'm a bit wary.

Also, today, the 12 year old I babysit for was kind of obnoxious. His mom wants him to do these chores when he gets in, and for the first few weeks he was alright with it. Now, he comes home everyday and has this scowl on his face, and refuses to do things. I asked him today to take his lunch box out of his bag and he said," You do it. You're right next to it." I was all, " NO, I'm not your maid". He did it eventually, but it bothered me for awhile. I think I'm going to start to look for other things. It has been in the back of my mind - I like them and all, and I'm sure I can talk to his mom and she will be understanding and back off - but I just want more. SO MUCH MORE.

I was on my way home thinking of the exciting life people think we all live in NY, and how I should be out every night, meeting people who are dazzling, who will change my life. Usually, I'm pretty tired at the end of the day, and just want to read, and hang out with my cat. I don't think I'm the only one who feels that way either.