Focus

I'm 40. It was really painful for a bit, but I have to admit that now that I'm settling into it, I'm really appreciating the perspective it's giving me. I don't really feel like I am in the eye of the storm of my emotions all the time, almost afraid to do things because I knew that if they didn't go well there'd be hell to pay in terms of emotional torment. God, that feels weird to admit.

So anyway, there's been this clarity and a brain that's functioning independently of emotions - in other words,  there's an adult in charge.I like her.

I read something the other day that said something like - " Your 40's are a great age, besides the fact that you're really getting your shit together, you've got great cheekbones."Yes!

So then I read this Lifehacker post which talked about doing just 3 things a day, and I've been trying that. Much better. I do these things and I feel like I've accomplished something, whereas doing a bunch of things and then looking back and thinking "What did I do with that time? Why does everything still feel like it's a mess?" was not working for me.

Today, I worked on a necklace, it's been bothering me for some time and it's still not perfect, but it's progress --OHHH, and that feels right.